beginning of the week.

well i guess i should probly post. i havent for a little while. yesterday was miserable. well school at the very least. i didnt really know if i was depressed or angry or even sick. i know i felt like all those at some point. i just wanted to go home. i drove myself that day so i seriously concidered it. but i stuck it out i guess. i was glad that natasha was back and i talked with her a bit. adrienne was gone leaving for vaccation, and even though she was missed, i was glad she got out. it really wasnt a fun day. after school i was gonna go to jordans house and play his computer game. so in the parking lot i was in the van getting ready to pull out and jordan comes up to my window. and in his "meek/pathetic" voice he goes, "jared? my truck wont start." i laughed. we messed with it a little bit and had no idea really what we were doing. then i took jordan home. we walked around in his woods by the creek. planned all these things we could do with airsoft. then came back, and as we waited for his sister to get off the computer, he watched news, and i played with those little green army men with his brother. then once we got on i showed jordan a thing or two about that game.

so thats what i did.

im eager to make this break the slowest i possibly can. its already started out well. i slept till 10:30 this morning. i know i can do better than that. im thinking 2:30, 2:45 will be a new goal for me.

right now my sisters sleeping on the coutch. i hate it when people do that. her room's like 12 feet away. now i cant really do anything in the livingroom cause shed get all ticked if i woke her. so im down here.

i have alot of good music, but im ready for something new and different. my music's getting old. right now im listening to sheryl crow. help me.

i think im gonna do something today. i dont know what, but i wanna do something.